Secret Life of a Teenager Who is Not on a TV Show

I learned about this new adventure I am going to go on this summer. It's called OUTWARD BOUND. I'm pretty excited, but part of me is really reluctant though. Outward Bound is where for three weeks you go and experience the outdoors like never before. You do this by rock climbing, white water rafting, and backpacking. This all sounds like so much fun. To just go and forget about the stress of life and enjoy what the outdoors have to offer. Wouldn't that be freaking sweet to say," Yeah I totally beasted that mountain and those rapids, pfft they were easy!" I mean this is not for everyone. You defintally have to have a certain interest to get excited to go and be gone for so long to go on this trip.I just think this experience would be worth while. You go there not knowing anyone, and having to make all these new bonds with people. You develop certain leadership skills and abilities you never knew you had. I really want to go,but

Part of me does not want to miss hanging out with my friends all summer.

I'm gone for a week in June, a week in July, and I'm back for a day and then leave for three weeks. When I get back from Outward Bound, volleyball for high school starts. So I only have about 5 weeks of summer where I'm home and can do whatever. Yeah I get to go to camp VCBC, a missions trip to Arizona, and now this Outward Bound experience this summer, but I'm going to miss my friends. Especially my boyfriend, who I know wants me to go on this trip because it would be so cool. Part of me just want to stay and hangout with everyone. Like summer is my time to relax, be home, hangout with friends, and stay up late. I do not have to worry about school.

I'm just torn, but I know that I will end up going on this trip. I just need to tell myself it is just one summer out of your whole life. Three weeks out of all the other thousands of weeks I will have. Yet these three will be amazing, and something that when I'm older and look back I will be so happy that I did this.